Butterflies in my stomach, fear of the unknown
To opt for the mind, the heart at war
Gliding through the sands, an oasis in the distance
Illusion of love, nothingness so far.
The shattering glass pieces akin snowfall
Shadows of darkness on life bechance
Await the doom of life's nightfall
Crumble to the earth, love et all.
Vanquishing the fear, affection arose
Dazzling away the trenchant darkness
Phantasm of fear, the mind befundled
Emanates beatitude, the awakened soul
Summon into mind, bury in heart
The Sun asunder phosphorescence nevermore
Love is you, You are love
Truth was not crystal anymore!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Saturday, January 12, 2008
The struggle called Life!
Is life really a struggle? One wonders !
One moves through the rosy phases of innocence waiting for
maturity to dawn. The wait is but a struggle !
Adolescence brings the sweet & sour taste of new emotions not
experienced before carrying on its shoulders the storms of hormones.
Barely does one step over the fence and the freckles of
reality scar the beautiful face of dreamland.
Rustling through the waves dabs the inky narration of events time and again.
Finally the blankness of senility finds the last call endearing!
Is life really a struggle? I still wonder!
One moves through the rosy phases of innocence waiting for
maturity to dawn. The wait is but a struggle !
Adolescence brings the sweet & sour taste of new emotions not
experienced before carrying on its shoulders the storms of hormones.
Barely does one step over the fence and the freckles of
reality scar the beautiful face of dreamland.
Rustling through the waves dabs the inky narration of events time and again.
Finally the blankness of senility finds the last call endearing!
Is life really a struggle? I still wonder!
Thursday, January 18, 2007
HOPE
Hope that someday it will all change
Hope that someday it will be different
Hope that things wont matter anymore
Hope that feelings would change again
Hope that an angel would rise from the clouds
Hope that every wish would be granted
Hope……….. hope………
We all but live with some or the other hope. We may call it an ambition, a desire, a moto, a mission, a goal or simply love. But it all boils down to the same word HOPE! That there will be a judgment day and all shall end. But what would still remain would be hope.
When there is hope there is a determination to move on, to venture out, to gather the courage to face the unknown. Its hope that makes mountains move and the ocean waves to rise again. The hope to touch the sunlight, the hope of a new dawn! It may or may not bring the expected result or should I say the desired effect to the deliberations of the actions, thoughts and feelings. And yet, come tsunami or cyclone, the heart moves on. And it moves on HOPE, you bet!
If only one could come around this feeling of hope. A state where there is no want, no desire, something like the ancient rishis must have attained. Would that still be a hope in itself. A hope to attain enlightenment probably! My intellect stops here. But going beyond the intellect makes me realize that in the game of life there is a lot that this little mind cannot comprehend. There is a lot that I have learnt to believe without physical and substantial proof. Just like I believe in the existence of “LOVE”. It can’t be proved but its there and its every human beings living reality today. So probably “coming around hope” will be possible when I rise beyond this web of mind and intellect, maybe at a stage where I can experience more than I can possibly understand.
And that is my greatest Hope today!
Hope that someday it will be different
Hope that things wont matter anymore
Hope that feelings would change again
Hope that an angel would rise from the clouds
Hope that every wish would be granted
Hope……….. hope………
We all but live with some or the other hope. We may call it an ambition, a desire, a moto, a mission, a goal or simply love. But it all boils down to the same word HOPE! That there will be a judgment day and all shall end. But what would still remain would be hope.
When there is hope there is a determination to move on, to venture out, to gather the courage to face the unknown. Its hope that makes mountains move and the ocean waves to rise again. The hope to touch the sunlight, the hope of a new dawn! It may or may not bring the expected result or should I say the desired effect to the deliberations of the actions, thoughts and feelings. And yet, come tsunami or cyclone, the heart moves on. And it moves on HOPE, you bet!
If only one could come around this feeling of hope. A state where there is no want, no desire, something like the ancient rishis must have attained. Would that still be a hope in itself. A hope to attain enlightenment probably! My intellect stops here. But going beyond the intellect makes me realize that in the game of life there is a lot that this little mind cannot comprehend. There is a lot that I have learnt to believe without physical and substantial proof. Just like I believe in the existence of “LOVE”. It can’t be proved but its there and its every human beings living reality today. So probably “coming around hope” will be possible when I rise beyond this web of mind and intellect, maybe at a stage where I can experience more than I can possibly understand.
And that is my greatest Hope today!
WHAT EMOTION DO YOU WANT TO BE?
What is an emotion? Is it a thought merely, or is it the output of a reaction between 2 or more thoughts. Isn’t it like some kind of chemistry, probably a mental or emotional chemistry? A chemistry between few thoughts and some actions, that results in a reaction, internal to the human body, internal to the mind. Maybe even deeper than the mind level. This reaction could be a heavy wind, a blizzard or a cyclone somewhere deep inside.
Sometimes I laugh
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I’m angry
And sometimes I’m almost neutral
This is all me, this is all that makes up Doe. But then is it all I wonder. I give my own emotions so much importance, is it all that Doe comprises of? Aren't all these emotions like water? They vaporize when they want and solidify at their own convenience. Each emotion seems to have a mind of its own. Then what is Doe’s identity? Who is Doe? Am I just a Jamba juice made of the different flavors of emotions? Am I a mixed fruit milk shake? What if I don’t want to be a particular fruit or flavor? What if I refuse to be anger…. I refuse to be hurt…. I refuse to have pain…. Is that rational? Or is it mere speculation?
At the end of the day all I want is a mind of my own! And the choice to what flavor I want to be! I choose being at PEACE with myself.
What about you?
Sometimes I laugh
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I’m angry
And sometimes I’m almost neutral
This is all me, this is all that makes up Doe. But then is it all I wonder. I give my own emotions so much importance, is it all that Doe comprises of? Aren't all these emotions like water? They vaporize when they want and solidify at their own convenience. Each emotion seems to have a mind of its own. Then what is Doe’s identity? Who is Doe? Am I just a Jamba juice made of the different flavors of emotions? Am I a mixed fruit milk shake? What if I don’t want to be a particular fruit or flavor? What if I refuse to be anger…. I refuse to be hurt…. I refuse to have pain…. Is that rational? Or is it mere speculation?
At the end of the day all I want is a mind of my own! And the choice to what flavor I want to be! I choose being at PEACE with myself.
What about you?
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
Two voices - mind and heart
TWO VOICES!
I would love to eat those Lindt dark chocolates !
I’m sure but what about your new year’s Resolution.
Wah! That can wait ! I’ll eat just once today n begin on the resolution tomorrow.
Nope, if you give in once you’ll give in again and again.
Hey, stop preaching me. Let me have em.
But you have kept up all your resolutions for 3 days now, don’t break em.
The others are easy ones. This is the toughest man! Just this once, I promise.
But what about putting on weight?
Oh, just 2 pieces don’t have much of calories.
They do! 2 pieces would add extra 25 calories and mind you ‘empty calories’ they are, no nutrition there. That means extra fat. And look at yourself. Do you think you look anywhere close to Julia Roberts or Aishwarya Rai. You cant afford 25 empty fattening calories just for 25 seconds of gustatory pleasure!
Pooh! There go my Lindt chocolates L.
Good girl !
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On second thoughts…. What if I had not heard any of the above. Good Idea! No brilliant idea, I should say !
There goes the New Year’s Resolution!
Happy New Year Friends !
I would love to eat those Lindt dark chocolates !
I’m sure but what about your new year’s Resolution.
Wah! That can wait ! I’ll eat just once today n begin on the resolution tomorrow.
Nope, if you give in once you’ll give in again and again.
Hey, stop preaching me. Let me have em.
But you have kept up all your resolutions for 3 days now, don’t break em.
The others are easy ones. This is the toughest man! Just this once, I promise.
But what about putting on weight?
Oh, just 2 pieces don’t have much of calories.
They do! 2 pieces would add extra 25 calories and mind you ‘empty calories’ they are, no nutrition there. That means extra fat. And look at yourself. Do you think you look anywhere close to Julia Roberts or Aishwarya Rai. You cant afford 25 empty fattening calories just for 25 seconds of gustatory pleasure!
Pooh! There go my Lindt chocolates L.
Good girl !
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On second thoughts…. What if I had not heard any of the above. Good Idea! No brilliant idea, I should say !
There goes the New Year’s Resolution!
Happy New Year Friends !
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
Wonder !
Sometimes I wonder what is “all this” about.
“What all this?” you would ask. This entire ritual of waking up, brushing, bathing, hurrying to work, slogging your butt out, returning home, listening to bullshit from every goddamnit family member, every friend, every other person in your life, digesting all the bullshit along with the food you eat, going to bed cursing the goddamn day and then waking up to another one with the same crappy schedule.
What are we doing to ourselves? What am I doing to myself? And why? What is the purpose of this? What?
Is it really happening or is it just a dream? Am I suddenly going to wake up and say “thank god its over”. Imagine that you really were to wake up now and realize that life was just a dream. That that what you thought for real wasn’t real. That your friends weren’t there, that your house, your family, your office all of it was just a figment of your imagination. All this pain, this suffering, this thing called life was an illusion. Even the happiness, the sense of achievement, the woes and worries, the feeling of Love, the longing for your loved one, all of it just vanished like it were never a part of you.
What are we without all this pain and pleasure, love and hurt, happiness and tears? This is what I am. This is what I identify myself with. This is all, my mind and heart can perceive. Though at times there is a war between my own heart and mind, I do manage a compromise, which may not always be without a grudge. And at the end of the day I am still alive. Alive but wondering “do I still think I know it all”?
Nevertheless, there is one thing my years of experience as a human being have taught me over and over again - that I really don’t comprehend all of this in its entirety. That my mind still needs to understand more, learn more and grow more. That one day I shall know all that is to be known, if not ALL atleast all that my little mind would be able to absorb at its stage of evolution or journey towards enlightenment, should I say!
Till then I WONDER !
“What all this?” you would ask. This entire ritual of waking up, brushing, bathing, hurrying to work, slogging your butt out, returning home, listening to bullshit from every goddamnit family member, every friend, every other person in your life, digesting all the bullshit along with the food you eat, going to bed cursing the goddamn day and then waking up to another one with the same crappy schedule.
What are we doing to ourselves? What am I doing to myself? And why? What is the purpose of this? What?
Is it really happening or is it just a dream? Am I suddenly going to wake up and say “thank god its over”. Imagine that you really were to wake up now and realize that life was just a dream. That that what you thought for real wasn’t real. That your friends weren’t there, that your house, your family, your office all of it was just a figment of your imagination. All this pain, this suffering, this thing called life was an illusion. Even the happiness, the sense of achievement, the woes and worries, the feeling of Love, the longing for your loved one, all of it just vanished like it were never a part of you.
What are we without all this pain and pleasure, love and hurt, happiness and tears? This is what I am. This is what I identify myself with. This is all, my mind and heart can perceive. Though at times there is a war between my own heart and mind, I do manage a compromise, which may not always be without a grudge. And at the end of the day I am still alive. Alive but wondering “do I still think I know it all”?
Nevertheless, there is one thing my years of experience as a human being have taught me over and over again - that I really don’t comprehend all of this in its entirety. That my mind still needs to understand more, learn more and grow more. That one day I shall know all that is to be known, if not ALL atleast all that my little mind would be able to absorb at its stage of evolution or journey towards enlightenment, should I say!
Till then I WONDER !
Oh my God!
This is going to be FUN! Lets see what i can make of my idle time !
Hey friends , I may not be a great writer but it is inspiration that has got me here.
I wish i can start the new year with a new unturned unknown and a completely undiscovered side of the DOE(thats me :))
Hope you guys enjoy reading me !
This is going to be FUN! Lets see what i can make of my idle time !
Hey friends , I may not be a great writer but it is inspiration that has got me here.
I wish i can start the new year with a new unturned unknown and a completely undiscovered side of the DOE(thats me :))
Hope you guys enjoy reading me !
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