HOPE

Hope that someday it will all change
Hope that someday it will be different
Hope that things wont matter anymore
Hope that feelings would change again
Hope that an angel would rise from the clouds
Hope that every wish would be granted
Hope……….. hope………

We all but live with some or the other hope. We may call it an ambition, a desire, a moto, a mission, a goal or simply love. But it all boils down to the same word HOPE! That there will be a judgment day and all shall end. But what would still remain would be hope.
When there is hope there is a determination to move on, to venture out, to gather the courage to face the unknown. Its hope that makes mountains move and the ocean waves to rise again. The hope to touch the sunlight, the hope of a new dawn! It may or may not bring the expected result or should I say the desired effect to the deliberations of the actions, thoughts and feelings. And yet, come tsunami or cyclone, the heart moves on. And it moves on HOPE, you bet!

If only one could come around this feeling of hope. A state where there is no want, no desire, something like the ancient rishis must have attained. Would that still be a hope in itself. A hope to attain enlightenment probably! My intellect stops here. But going beyond the intellect makes me realize that in the game of life there is a lot that this little mind cannot comprehend. There is a lot that I have learnt to believe without physical and substantial proof. Just like I believe in the existence of “LOVE”. It can’t be proved but its there and its every human beings living reality today. So probably “coming around hope” will be possible when I rise beyond this web of mind and intellect, maybe at a stage where I can experience more than I can possibly understand.

And that is my greatest Hope today!

WHAT EMOTION DO YOU WANT TO BE?

What is an emotion? Is it a thought merely, or is it the output of a reaction between 2 or more thoughts. Isn’t it like some kind of chemistry, probably a mental or emotional chemistry? A chemistry between few thoughts and some actions, that results in a reaction, internal to the human body, internal to the mind. Maybe even deeper than the mind level. This reaction could be a heavy wind, a blizzard or a cyclone somewhere deep inside.

Sometimes I laugh
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I’m angry
And sometimes I’m almost neutral

This is all me, this is all that makes up Doe. But then is it all I wonder. I give my own emotions so much importance, is it all that Doe comprises of? Aren't all these emotions like water? They vaporize when they want and solidify at their own convenience. Each emotion seems to have a mind of its own. Then what is Doe’s identity? Who is Doe? Am I just a Jamba juice made of the different flavors of emotions? Am I a mixed fruit milk shake? What if I don’t want to be a particular fruit or flavor? What if I refuse to be anger…. I refuse to be hurt…. I refuse to have pain…. Is that rational? Or is it mere speculation?

At the end of the day all I want is a mind of my own! And the choice to what flavor I want to be! I choose being at PEACE with myself.

What about you?